these are my confessions~

Confession #1: The pizza from the last blog? All the credit has to go to The Boy ... in order to save a bit of money, we're trying to cook each other meals and last week was his turn, and he made us pizza ... from scratch(!), it's true. But I wish I could take credit for the yummy meal. If you'd like a little recipe, I can ask him ;) 

Confession #2: When I take my dog out for a walk at the park, I get jealous at all the little kids playing all these new games I don't know about (seriously, what is Fruit Salad?!). Makes me wish I could just be carefree and run around ... so me and my dog went exploring and then I came home and ate some ice cream ... oops. 

Confession #3: I have a bit of a weird addiction to The Hills, especially MTV's Aftershow because of the hosts, Dan and Jessi (who are Canadian, whoop whoop)! So when me and my close friend (who is also a fellow Hills-obsesser) found out they were coming to our university for an impromptu talk and Q&A session, we definitely had to go. We piled into a lecture hall and listened, while also getting the chance to ask them some questions.

They are honestly a hoot and told all these funny stories about meeting Tom Cruise (nice - almost too nice), Kristen Stewart (not very positive), Kelly Clarkson (Dan is a big fan), and what they really think about certain cast members of The Hills. It was a random and hilarious night :) And I look like a dork in that photo, hmms.

Confession #4: I now have that GLEE mash-up stuck in my head. 

Confession #5: I feel like my life is at a bit of a standstill. That's not to say that I don't go out and do things, it's just ... I constantly feel like I'm waiting for things to begin, waiting for answers to all these questions I have. And it's not that I'm afraid of the answer -- I'm more than willing to find out what I need to do next in my life. It's just the waiting that gets to me. When you go out and exercise, you're working towards that goal, it's a quote-on-quote "work in progress." But when you write down everything and anything that will take you to the next step in life and all you're counting on is that one day when you find out whether it's a yes or a no and that day can't come soon enough ... it just makes everything feel like a standstill. 

Recently, I found out that I might actually go to Europe this summer in August. It's another question, and I'm hoping the answer is yes, that I'll get to see my family again, that I'll get to meet The Boy's family, that we'll get to see places and experience things different than what I'm used to. But it's another one of those what if moments, one of those well, hopefully it'll happen. All I'm doing lately is making back-up plans for the plans I'm still waiting on answers for. 

I guess that's life, right?

Wow, this post took a sudden 'Debbie Downer' turn. 

I try to look on the bright side of life, try to focus on all that I have, the people in my life, things that I've accomplished. And one of my closest friends told me that no matter what, there will be opportunities in my life - and I appreciate that so much, and I believe her. I just wish they would come a bit sooner.